Author Archives: Lyn

Fear, An Awful Place to Visit

Posted on February 18, 2010 by Lyn

I’ve been living in fear.  Fear is not a mood, but it’s a true mood-killer.  It’s there like a hellish foundation of all that is horrible and terrifying.  It’s accompanied by dread, something which gives the fear some strength, backbone, … Continue reading →

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Sad and Suspicious

Posted on February 16, 2010 by Lyn

It’s been a sad two weeks.  A person who made a great impact on my life died. His funeral is today, but I don’t think I am going to put myself through that.  I will just keep in mind that … Continue reading →

Posted in Depression, Reactions, Suspicion | 3 Comments

Moods

Posted on February 14, 2010 by Lyn

Moods.  They are all over the place and change so rapidly I’m surprised I don’t have whiplash.  This minute I feel leveled, devastated, sick to my stomach.  Last night, I felt comfortable sitting here on the sofa with my husband … Continue reading →

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The Promise

Posted on February 10, 2010 by Lyn

He was distressed over the promise he made two months ago.  I asked him to tell someone about the affair.  He asked me what he could do and I told him what I wanted him to do “without discussing it … Continue reading →

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He Is Sad, Today

Posted on February 2, 2010 by Lyn

He’s sad, today.  Last night he wanted to hold me and kiss me and be close, but this morning, he was remote. Maybe it was because I brought up something he didn’t want to discuss, namely, some things said during … Continue reading →

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The Other Shoe

Posted on February 1, 2010 by Lyn

Finally.  I am starting to thaw.  I skipped over a lot of stuff in my mission to get things where they are “supposed” to be without realizing all of the sacrifices I was making.  It occurred to me, yesterday, after … Continue reading →

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The Calm Before The Storm

Posted on January 4, 2010 by Lyn

When to post, what to post?  There were times this week when I felt so victorious over the situation that I wondered if I would have anything to write about, again- delusion.  I thought if we could just get through … Continue reading →

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